Playlist 1: The breakup that never was

You didn’t listen to the playlist I made you. You’re not going to see this fucking playlist either. If for some reason you are reading this, then “hi”.

I was spiraling fast. I was self destructing.
Give me love/ Give me dreams/ Give me a good self esteem
Give me everything/ All your heart can bring/ Something good and true/ I don’t wanna feel blue anymore

Feeling This
This song is one of my favorites especially after hearing the background. This was written by Tom DeLonge and Mark Hoppus – Tom wrote verses and Mark wrote the chorus in separate rooms, unaware of what the other was writing about. Tom wrote an intense story of passion and lust. Mark wrote a sentimental, heartfelt story of longing and reminiscence. It’s brilliant and beautiful and very much us.
Show me the bedroom floor/ Show me the bathroom mirror/ We’re taking this way too slow/ Take me away from here
Fate fell short this time/ Your smile fades in the summer/ Place your hand in mind/ I’ll leave when I wanna

Didn’t know what this would be/ But I knew I didn’t see/ What you thought you saw in me/ I jumped the gun/ So sure you’d split and run/ Ready for the worst/ Before the damage was done
The storm never came/ Or it never was

Everything Has Changed
You were stability in my chaotic life, in my chaotic mind. You didn’t fix me. I didn’t think that. I didn’t rely on you for my happiness. You’re mistaken. You were stability. And I was able to pick myself up. 
And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies/ The beautiful kind/ Making up for lost time, taking flight, making me feel like/ I just want to know you better, know you better now

Who’d Have Known
Are you mine? Are you mine? ‘Cause I stay here all the time
Who’d have known/ When you flash up on my phone/ I’d no longer feel alone

Do I Wanna Know?
No. I didn’t want to know. I was happy enough with the time we had.
Do I wanna know/ If this feeling flows both ways/ Sad to see you go/ Was sort of hoping that you’d stay

Starring Role
Here it was. The turning point.
You’re hard to hug, tough to talk to/ And I never fall asleep/ When you’re in my bed/ All you give me is a heartbeat/ I’ve turned into a statue/ And it makes me feel depressed/ ‘Cause the only time you open up is when we get undressed

Fuck this – are we dating? Are we fucking? Are we best friends? Are we something? In between that? I wish we never fucked, and I mean that.

Hermit the Frog
My heart just burst like a glass balloon/ I’d let it fly too high and it shattered too soon/ I was the wrong damn girl in the wrong damn room/ I broke my glass balloon

Blue (again)
Back when we decided to only see each other as friends.
Give me one more night/ One last goodbye/ Let’s do it one last time/ One last time
No I don’t love you/ No I don’t care/ I just wanna be held when I’m scared/ And all I want is one night with you/ Just cause I’m selfish/ I know it’s true

To a Poet
I’m not good at goodbyes. You tend to feel less lonely when there’s a song expressing your feelings. 
Now I miss you more than I can take/ And I will surely break/ And every morning that I wake/ God, it’s the same/ But there’s nothing more to it/ I just get through it
And so I ask where are you now/ Just when I needed you/ I won’t ask again/ Because I know there’s nothing we can do

Merry Happy
Yeah, you make me merry/ Make me very very happy/ But you obviously/ You didn’t want to stick around – so I learnt from you
Can’t take back those hours/ But I won’t regret cause you can grow flowers from where dirt used to be

When I finally got my answer.
You’re too proud to say that you’ve made a mistake/ You’re a coward til the end/ I don’t wanna admit, but we’re not gonna fit/ No, I’m not the type that you like/ Why don’t we just pretend?
I just want it to be perfect/ To believe it’s all been worth the fight

Not in Love
We were lovers/ Now we can’t be friends/ Fascination ends

Onto the next one.