One, two, three, four,
Steady mind, steady fingers –
Breathe in, breathe out.
Nothing but here
The mind wanders,
But is pulled back in
Like yarn escaping a needle.
Bring the attention back.
An invisible hand reached through my neck, cutting my breath short, pulling my consciousness away until it was completely detached from my body.
I could move, but only very slowly.
I could see, but everything was choppy, as if I was looking at a broken screen.
I could hear, but it was like I was underwater. Voices seemed far away and echoed even though they came from right in front of me.
I instructed myself to smile, to move my head every once in a while so no one would know anything was wrong. I robotically carried out these actions when I could.
I sat beside myself and saw the dead, faraway look in my eyes. The blank face. My body swayed unsteadily. I felt nauseas, as if my body was a rocking boat and I was dangling off the edge.
I somehow found my way home and fell into a long and uneasy sleep.